i didn’t realize this was an 00m song until i was recording the harmonies. i started doing the “oo’s” over the bridge and it struck me i could put an ‘m’ on the end. at that moment i realized the whole song shared the 00m atmosphere, with a protagonist struggling with mental health issues and outsider-ness, with a core – if tragic – “happy ending” of acceptance, in this case, forced.
an early 70s prozac vocal as the main character wrestles with some difficult insights and an attempt at feeling.
not entirely certain what he thinks he “should” do. my guess is that a few drinks will undo the softness…
a similar theme to last week’s entry. preparation for some kind of a journey, though not sure whether it is an inner or outer journey. a tidying up before moving on, perhaps.
with the first few, i’m not setting a high bar, just want to get back in the habit of having an unfinished tune in my head all week. ultimately i have a pair of musicals i want to create songs for. but first, some stretching and warming up.
i wanted to get back to the ongoing cycle of songwriting, so here is the official monday song number 101.
i’ll be releasing the full length “up, up, and away” next monday. in the meantime, here’s something i put together for npr’s “tiny desk” competition. the folks who’ve seen it have said they liked it so i figured i’d share a bit more widely.
the performance was done live in front of a green screen to allow for some fun editing in final cut pro.
the final track bookends the first (“the cure”) as an overview of the entire experience.
i used the music to underscore the credits for the visual sources borrowed throughout the movie.
planning to release the entire movie on may 2, and will start sharing it out after that. currently putting the finishing touches on a double-cd for which the movie is the accompaniment.
this is the final video in the movie, showcasing the confused depression so nicely captured by the coen brothers in barton fink.
the final sequence is titled “the return,” which closes the loop with the depression that started the cycle. it is at once the same and new: a more complex depression that includes the loss of what had at first looked like an escape earned by years of suffering. like passing seasons, moving forward standing still…
all of the visuals are from lars von trier’s exploration of depression, melancholia.
after many hours strapped to a restraint table, sleep finally comes, and a dream encapsulation of the icarus-like rise and fall that is the manic depressive experience. the visuals come from koyaanasqatsi.