After a two year absence, I’ve moved my feature-length video to Vimeo, making it available again after various issues with the other video platform. The movie accompanies the album “Up, Up and Away,” whose eighteen songs chronicle the emotional rollercoaster of a manic episode that landed me in the hospital in 1999. The video juxtaposes […]
i’ve just completed the final edit of my feature-length video, “up, up, and away.” this project has been in the planning stages since 2011, and i’ve been actively working on it for most of the past year. i’m really excited about the results. the film captures the various emotional states that accompanied a manic episode […]
the final track bookends the first (“the cure”) as an overview of the entire experience. i used the music to underscore the credits for the visual sources borrowed throughout the movie. planning to release the entire movie on may 2, and will start sharing it out after that. currently putting the finishing touches on a […]
this is the final video in the movie, showcasing the confused depression so nicely captured by the coen brothers in barton fink.
the final sequence is titled “the return,” which closes the loop with the depression that started the cycle. it is at once the same and new: a more complex depression that includes the loss of what had at first looked like an escape earned by years of suffering. like passing seasons, moving forward standing still… […]
after many hours strapped to a restraint table, sleep finally comes, and a dream encapsulation of the icarus-like rise and fall that is the manic depressive experience. the visuals come from koyaanasqatsi.
the end of the “restraints” sequence, something like christ’s burial before the ascent to heaven. but in this story, the ascent to heaven only happens in fantasy (the next chapter), and the ultimate awakening at the end of the path is to life in the grave, aka depression. the scene comes from the opening of sunset […]
the second video of three in the “restraints” sequence features scenes from the tenant, the hunchback of notre dame, and dancer in the dark. the christ-like love and connection that marks the peak of a florid manic episode suddenly slopes downward toward destruction and loss, spiraling toward the end which nailed to a cross.
this is the first part in the “restraints” sequence. after showing more and more psychotic behavior, our hero is strapped to a table for a good night’s sleep… the result is a slow implosion, made visual by the beautiful last section of coppola’s the conversation and the end of ‘fall’ in spring, summer, fall, winter… […]
the third and final piece of the “hospital” sequence, featuring scenes from frankenstein, the matrix, and barton fink.