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the making of…

in 1999, i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. at the time, i lay strapped to a restraint table in the psych ward of a local hospital, the consequence of the increasingly erratic and unsafe behavior that defines a florid manic episode. what had begun as an inspirational recovery, after years battling depression, disintegrated into chaos and delusion andback1 a fearlessness that was ultimately life-threatening. in all, it would be five days until i was allowed to return home, accompanied by a depression worse than any i had experienced.

this vicious circle represents the tragic irony of bipolar disorder (or manic depression, the term i prefer). the improvement in mood and clarity that seems to offer long- sought-after release from a paralyzing darkness is itself a dangerous symptom of the disease. the feeling of safety is ultimately unsafe; the feeling of trust, untrustworthy.

this album captures the shifting moods of my first manic experience: from depression to the first flickers of light; the ascent into mania, then hospitalization; a night in restraints, followed by a return to ‘normality’ (aka depression). a musical tragedy in eighteen songs.

i made a feature length video as a visual companion to the music. watch it at http://andyliotta.com/upupandawaymovie.

for anyone wrestling with bipolar depression.

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credits

written, performed, recorded, and mixed by andy liotta

mastered by ed brooks at rfi mastering, seattle, wa

all songs licensed by ascap * artwork by billie burke