monday song #32: falling in love

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manic depression is always portrayed by a kinetic actor balancing energy and speed.

but there is another mood that is just as prevalent: the racing mind and quiet body. thinking done with teeth gritted, grinding and grinding.

at the height of my heights, i went on a walk where i was consumed by a tidal wave of spiritual insight, an almost audible opening sound, i felt like scatman caruthers shining.

i was 33. jesus’ age. feeling like everywhere i walked would one day be enshrined as a holy ground, a destination for my future pilgrims. thoughts were flying in so fast, they left a breeze. a single-minded focus on truth and existence, in the shadow of a certainty that was growing omnipresent. likeĀ lsd with your sanity still intact.

i was locked in the state of falling in love. a deep passionate romance, but not focused on a person. just pure love in the abstract, such that everywhere i turned there was a new rush of excitement, of clarity, of understanding, of communion.

a sad outcome of this experience is that years later it has left me with a sadness when i get those moments of humming awareness. if i get too happy, i might be getting sick. i was already a pessimist. it didn’t need reinforcement.

parts of the melody and the harmonic structure owe a debt to the suicide note section of “thanksgiving” (monday song # 29). seemed fitting as i saw sullivan’s son as mentally ill, with a manic flush when he wrote his last words. not sad, but enthusiastic about the dangerous next step. it’s a lowly thing to rip yourself off. but it’s a victimless crime.

scatman caruthers in his bed in florida receiving danny’s shining. but with a smile, and no elevator blood.

 

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  • Henroochi bon on

    Hong Kong Scatman fuey!
    The number 1 super guy..

    Stumbled upon some old scatman on wax.
    A must have for any collection of mood swingin music
    It has become my morning
    house cleaning album.
    Sits right next to the
    Ella Fitz
    Eartha Kits
    Miles/Hendrix
    And 78s of Mz. lady day.


  • Henroochi bon on

    Hong Kong Scatman fuey!
    The number 1 super guy..

    Stumbled upon some old scatman on wax.
    A must have for any collection of mood swingin music
    It has become my morning
    house cleaning album.
    Sits right next to they
    Ella Fitz
    Eartha Kits
    Miles/Hendrix
    And 78s of Mz. lady day.


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